well I've been here in New York about a week and a half and have come upon my most challenging day. I am in a city of 8 million and all I can think of is the one person that I wish I was with, my love Whitney, days off of work are the hardest, that's when I miss her the most, I spend my time trying to fill up my day so that I won't have to think about how much I miss her and then I end up making her feel like I don't miss her because I am doing so much, or that I don't have time for her, when I would move the moon just to see her for an hour today. I miss her smile and the sound of her laughter, even on a rainy, humid day her voice is like sunshine and a cool breeze, refreshing me and embracing me. Last night all I could think of was her, I was playing guitar and jamming out with some guys from work and having fun, but still missing her so much, everything I'm experiencing here is missing that crucial ingredient: Whitney. and now here I am locked out of the place I'm crashing trying to find something to do, I am locked out because I avoided going back there last night to stay away from a bad situation, a rowdy party, and the lord provided me a way out, crashing on a friends couch, but now I am just to roam around the city til my friend turns his phone on and I can go back there.
I had no idea you posted a new note. I love it. It makes me feel really loved by you. Thanks. I miss you too. It's a slow steady burning ache sometimes...
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